Today was the first time, i felt an O level paper for real. From my previous entry on "Another Day Another Day" ,I mentioned about an IMBA test. Today, I just got the verdict. And what I predicted was true I failed. I got 9 of 20 for the MCQ paper. A MCQ paper. NOT yet a structured paper. Guess how bad will it be? I dont want to talk about it. When it was my turn to get the paper result, most of my classmates were shocked. They all went silent, when my teacher mentioned the marks followed by my name. I was totally O.O when I received the paper. Alot of feelings rushed through me; Guilty, Disappointing, Defeated, O.O and Sad. My teacher said it was okay to fail for this paper as he knows it was a d-i-f-f-i-c-u-l-t paper. I just cant accept that. Its was a Huge Blow to me. HUGE! I mean if you are always up front and one day you fall. its gonna be a huge impact. I felt as if I just fell from a building. o.o

But Kakak and Atep tried to cheer me up. (thanks alot kakak and atep!)
Kakak: Relax my brother :) We need to chill. Its just a test :D
Atep: Aah zal, relaks ah. Lagi satu mark je. :D
Me: ... :) ...
They always tried to motivate and cheer me up. I appreciate it. But as my physics teacher goes through the paper, my head starts to throb. Especially my left brain. It HURTS! still feel the pain now. I guess I was sucking in too much. I had to let go of it. *sigh. But Im gonna score my CA this coming Monday. Ill make sure I make a comeback.

haha. Not forgetting Lily Yana :) She too cheer me up. Virtually. hehe.
Lily Yana: awwwwww , cheeer up laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
Lily Yana: dont be sad sad . just relax okayyyy :D
Me: Okay Lily Yana :)
Thanks Lily Yana! :D appreciate it.

So thats what happened for today. Now, Im gonna rest for the day. Tomorrow will be the start of my training and preparations for Monday. Wish me luck people! :D

Labels: Picking Up Myself

Where did everyone go?
We no longer hang out together.
Whenever we meet, We see each other through.
We no longer go in groups.

Everyone seems to go in their own way.
Whats the main reason behind this?
I dont even know...
I dont even like it.

Why does it have to be this way?
Why cant we be together like before?
It sucks. Big time.
All Im seeing now is emptiness. A hole.

I hate talking about this.
But I guess I have no choice.
But to accept this.
Sometimes thing happen for the better good.
Lets just hope for it to be like that.

I hope we all could be like the past.
Truth is the past cannot be relieved.
We should'nt protect the past.
Instead look to bright future ahead.

But sometimes, its the past memories that brings us together.
"One for all, all for one" like they always say.

Labels: Phase Start

School today was soo dull in the morning. The fun only starts after English period. That is Mother Tongue period. hehe. :D The energy lasted till remedials time. But half way thru, I "lost" my house keys along with my CLASS key. I went to panic mode. I actually re-traced my steps. From Physics lab to the Computer lab and even the canteen. (I know, how careless can I be. o.o) So I was feeling guilty and at the same time angry at myself. But Im a kind of person who thinks of possibilities to my problems. :)
Just when I thought all hope was lost, I went to check my bag. This time more carefully - hoping to find my keys in there.And guess what. After running around the school, it was in my bag. I was like "WHAT THE FUCK?!". I know, its my fucking fault. Next scenario of the day that brought my morale down, was the IMBA physics test. I thought it was JUST a test. I underestimated my braniac-unpredictable teacher. I think Im gonna fail that test. OMG! I take every test seriously. no kidding. I felt like I was defeated in my physics knowledge. darn. After the test, I was O.O I feel like I wanna punch myself for not being well prepared and not doing the test at my fullest. But like what my Kakak always said, "we need to chill brother! :D" .hehe. I missed you kakak! :) (dude, you just met your sister in school o.o) hahaha! My Kakak always motivates me! haha. hehe. gosh, falling out of topic. LOL. so that was most of it for today.

My blog skin and etc will be done soon. Do keep a look a out. Ill be linking you guys soon. :D

Labels: Life

wow. Today, I just witnessed another day of life, where everyone I knew, is like going in their separate ways. We no longer hanging out together like the good old times. Maybe we are busy with our daily life? But the "no longer" starts to be like RARE. As in rarely meet up. I don't know why, but I cannot live my life like that. I have my reasons. Thats about enough of sadness.

Now, the great part! haha! I just got to talk virtually with Lily Yana!(go find out yourself :P) haha. cool or what? And I found out a new song from UVERworld! maybe not new to you guys who are fast in updating songs. Its super damn nice lah! Its titled 'Go-On'. The genre if Im not wrong is J-Rock. But Im not so sure bout that. but its SUPER NICE to hear! hehe. Ill put up the song as soon as i get the applications to my blog. I cant do much to my blog yet, coz im busy with my school tasks and stuff. But do check out for updates to my blog! :D
till the next entry, toodles. :)

Labels: Left or Right?

Hey people! I have just started my blog! YEAY~! haha. But there is still lots to do.But Ill take it "one step at a time" Ill try my best to update and do what a blogger does. I think. o.o

Labels: Prologue