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Song List
1) Getting Over You by David Guetta ft Fergie, LMFAO & Chris Willies
2) Naive by The Kooks, Live at Leeds
3) Dreamer by ONE OK ROCK
4) Im Awesome by The Spouse
5) Tell Me Goodbye by BIGBANG
6) Special by B2ST/BEAST, Live Performance
7) Telephone by Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Hello people :) I hope you guys are doing well. Because Im not.

Well, today was not a very good day. I kick start my day with questions in my mind - regarding my life.
The first question was like, "Results are out! yeay!....BUT, how well did I do?". It kept going in my mind for the rest of my school time. One by one, I got back my papers. Well, Ill be straight forward bout it. I failed my Computer Studies and pass my other 5 subjects. I am heartbroken when I got back all my papers. I was not and never cared about being the top student of my class for now. I mean even if I am the highest with my class MSG at 6 (which is not true, just an example), its useless. If you get what I mean. Anyways, I was so darn happy for my Physics. I got 81.5%. yes. 81.5%. Thats an A1! yeay! haha. But when I got back my Chemistry and calculated the total for my Combined Science, I lost my morale COMPLETELY. My Chemistry marks pulled my down, ALOT. I got 54.5 for my Chemistry. If you did your maths, I got 67.##%. OMG! I was emo. I felt like I just trembled over something and fell hard. So thats bout it. Below are the whole Prelim grades. Criticize and comment if you want at Left-Side of my blog or simply leave a comment.

-English: C6
-Mathematics: B4
-Combined Humanities: B4
-Combined Science: B3
-Mother Tongue: B4
-Computer Studies: D7
L1 + B4: 21

Thats about it for educations. Now, the other questions in my head.

"Why life is so cruel and sucks badly?"
"What isit about me that everyone seems to be avoiding me?"
"What I did wrong, so wrong that some people are angry at me?"
"Am I really a bad person?"
"I feel as if Im being banished. Forbidden to have a relationship with my friends?"
"Why is this happening to me? Is this a punishment to me?"
"If this is a punishment for my actions which hurt the people around me?"
"Things arent looking the same for me. I feel like they dont want me to be there..."

Those are the questions which popped out while i was going, at and leaving school. Till now these questions run in my head. Why? I just dont get it. Please do tell me. Please voice out if you hate or dont like something or everything about me. I wont get angry. I promise. But please, I seriously ask, what isit? Tell me what is wrong with me?? Ill appreciate it. I mean atleast I can change myself to be better. Ill try my best. Please. Help me. Thanks.
My heart and mind aches whenever these questions pops out in my mind.

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what we could have been, 8:27:00 PM.
Saturday, September 26, 2009

hi. No mood at the moment. sorry bout that.

Im just confused pver human beings. yes. HUMAN BEINGS. I just dont get some of them, even though Im one of it. I mean - Am I a different SPECIES of human beings? Because for me, some people are getting me confused. For example, a simple question such as, "what do you want from me?". I asked that person in a normal tone and I dont get an answer. I mean, its a normal easy-to-answer question, yet they dont answer me. More of a just-ignore-it. I dont get it. Not that Im demanding the answer. But its like basic courtesy....right? gosh. Im really confused over this. You can call me weird or what ever names you want - so far after reading this. I dont fucking care.

A couple of week is left before I start my O levels paper. Well, I have been trying to study and revise topics. gee, I find my life as a dull one. But I know you guys dont care. So fuck it.
Happenings lately? Well, I came across a news on the Miss Singapore 2009 winner of the pageant. She got a bad issue? From the news, they say that her english sucks - which is true after seeing the video - and she was accused of a credit card fraud. Well good luck to Miss Ris on that. NOT. haha.

Recently I have been playing Warriors Orochi 2 for the PSP console. Not bad. Cool new characters and stages. They even featured a Versus Mode in the game. Means you can choose 3 characters and battle it out with either computer AI or your friends in a Tekken way of style. I give the game a 9/10 mark. :D

I got the whole album songs from Paramore's new album, Brand New Eyes. 11 tracks in all.

Brand New Eyes Cover

NOW. Since its my religion festive season (FYI: Hari Raya), my peeps have organised a whole-day-visit-to-friends-house thing. Now, I dont know wheter I SHOULD GO. Its on Monday and I got till Sunday to decide. Give me opinions? Please? Really. Ill appreciate it.

So thats about it for this post. Bye.

I missed that cycling session.
Where did I go wrong?

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what we could have been, 9:12:00 PM.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Annyeong People! :D

hey, long time no post, you thought I mati (die). haha. Ive been busy? lately. But here is what happened.

Im actually in a "short holiday" from school. Untill next week. Reason being is that I dont have any papers to sit for, for this week. But on Monday, I have my last Prelim paper which is Combined Science (physics/chemistry) MCQ. AND its not an easy A-B-C-D-pick. The questions are killer kinds. hee. so wish me luck?
I have been listening to korean songs lately. But not like a whole database of it. Just 6 songs. hee. Its all nice and move-to-the-beat kind of songs. hehs. I love CL of 2ne1 :D

I had my hair cut. Short this time. But! I met and saw a girl on the MRT today. She is beautiful! Hee. I kept looking at her, then tried to smile at her. But, she gave me that serious face everytime I look at her. Her looks are stunning. seriously. She looked kind of like my friend, Aynn. If you guys knew her, then you know how beautiful the girl Im talking about now. Gosh. I kind of miss her. LOL! But seriously, if only I knew her name and number, we would be friends by now. Even after I got off the train, I , seriously, turned back to get eye contact with her, but failed. sigh* haha, jgn marah eh sayang :) I tetap setia ngan you! :D Ill be at your window everytime Bella :) haha.

PS: My flash fetish is a gonner. There are problems to it. so, some songs cant be played or nothing is played. Stupid right? I know. Ill try to figure it out.

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what we could have been, 8:46:00 PM.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Annyeong People! lol.

Sorry bout that. I have been listening to Korean songs for the past few days. Not that Im going all "gaga" over Korean....Okay, maybe a bit. teehee. You get the point right? :D

So, about the korean songs...I have been listening to Big Bang and 2ne1 songs. Just 3 songs altogether. But....The songs are awesome! And Im not lying bout this :) (maybe i did it out of curiousity?) lol. Anyways, the people and the song are AWESOME. Nice~ :D and you guys can check it out. Its at the iTouch. Big Bang are COOL! 2ne1 are HOT! haha. I guess, I have to say ALOT of thanks to kakak! :DDD haha.

2ne1

Big Bang

Well, I have been busy lately. Studying I guess? But the Os are coming. Seriously. Today I just had my Humanitites, Geography paper. Not too bad. But Im sure Im gonna dissapoint Ms. Syikin. Sorry cher :( I left one, 8 Marks question, blank. Reason being, I had no time -.-" But I did my best :D Tomorrows gonna be Language Paper 2, which is English, and my Combined Science Paper 3, Chemistry :D Wish me luck people :D Then the exams goes on till next week. AND next week is my religion festive season? or should I say New Year? But I still not getting psyched boutt he celebrations. hehs. But how am I suppose to enjoy when I STILL have an exam to take? GG. But My family has started to do the decorations and stuff. yeah, but thats not the important thing.

Next! Remember what I post about Paramore's Disband? Well....I was kind of OUTDATED. lol. That was a last years news. But doesnt hurt to re-tell right? hee. So, Paramore wasnt exactly going to disband. They were taking time off for a while to sort out their personal problems. No one is perfect right? hehe. So I just hope they get to settle it smoothly :D Ill support you guys all the way!!!
Talking about artist, well I recently heard about he Kanye West embarrassing Taylor Swift. Well, by looking at the video, Kanye West sucks and he is a B***k Dog, ****ing ***hole. Hate you man. Bitch.

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Yeah, I love you too Hayley :D

Well, thats about it. Nothing else. so bye2 :D

what we could have been, 2:10:00 PM.
Thursday, September 10, 2009

So what happen these few days?

Its the term holiday. For one week from last Monday. So, Ive been trying to study, been playing DOTA, PSP. Then eat sleep shit.

I never went out during this week, reason being, I got no news or updates. I did got invited once but I couldnt come. But there were many outings recently. But I didnt join my friends. Reason being? Dont ask, I wont repeat. Am I dead or what? -_- GG.

Next week, start of my second half of Prelims. Best. Recently I had Chemistry remedials. We did a so called "test". So much for a test, that everyone was talking and discussing with the teacher around. Overall I felt as if Im in ITE during that day (not to discriminate you ITE people). But the class was in havoc. I wont elaborate. So, I did my test, checked the answers with teacher and guess how much I got? An A2. Not bad. I want to push it up a notch to an A1 :D Ill try hard. If my prelims are quite okay, I can fairly predict my Os results. seriously.

Other than that, I just watched Race To Witch Mountain. Its a movie. I liked it! its nice and very touchful? haha. I still got 14 more movies to watch. Not that I HAVE to watch them, literally. But Im guessing Ill be watching them....ALONE. what to do?
Anyways, thats all for now. Im gonna go study. Toodles.

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what we could have been, 2:30:00 PM.


Paramore :D

Paramore is best band ever!! :D If you hate them, fuck off from my blog. Hayley Williams is HOT! If only they came to Singapore, Ill be the first to book their tix! haha!

Then as I was surfing the net for Paramore, I came across this web, http://soft.com.sg/forum/music-kopi-tiam/53042-paramore-disband.html , saying that Paramore has DISBAND O.O
NOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Please tell me this aint true. Ill go emo if this is true T.T
darn.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,
When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
Oh we're not the same,
The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good.
You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

what we could have been, 2:17:00 PM.
Thursday, September 3, 2009


EAT MY SIZE 20 BOOT SUCKA

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what we could have been, 8:52:00 AM.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Hey People.

My place have been raining for days now. And I feel as if Im in Forks. The weather is cooling and somewhat - peaceful. So whats been happening lately?

Well, firtsly, tomorrow is the start of my prelims. FYI: an exam before my O levels to get us in the mood and touch of O level paper. Consider it as a trial run. So lately, I have been TRYING to study and mug for the papers. Turns out, didnt really work out very well. But Im still trying the best I could.
Then...there is this movie I watched on saturday. Its damn funny and a really LMAO. You guys have to watch it. Its entitled Dance Flick. Its similar to the Meet The Spartans, Scary Movies kind of movie. Ill bet you would love it. I wont spoil any part. haha! So go watch it ;)

For the past few days, I have been chatting and texting Lily. haha. Dont get the wrong idea. I love chatting with her. What a bubbly girl :) Lily :D
Ouhyea, I almost forgot. Yesterday was Teachers' Day. haha. My class attendance was AWESOME. 7 absentees. cool huh? But Ive seen worst. haha. The day was started off with ACES. The meaning to it - for those who dont know - All Children Exercise Simultaneously. Yes. Children. I know...IM A TEEN! -_-" Why not they make it as AYES? Sounds better and suits all the secondary school students. My god, what are the people thinking these days. After half an hour of that, we all went back to class for normal lessons. I know, "how come? Shouldnt it be half-day?". Hey, dont look at me. Ask the old man. So much for the normal lessons. End up the teachers were also werent in the mood to teach. So we all agreed to relax and do our own stuffs. Own stuffs as in revision. NOT play. As soon it was recess, I went out the class to get some air. It was cold! on that day. haha. As I look across the block, I saw Lily and her friends. LOL. I wont state what I saw. But it was funny and cute. hee. 1210, We all headed to the hall for the performances. The performance was good. But the people behind the scenes were...."I-got-nothing-to-say". Supposed to end at 1310. But it dragged till 1430. Nice. Then there was some problems to the song of one dance group. I pity them. They kind of lost their momentum when they did it the second time. All because of the people who cant even play the song from the CD. -_- GG. Overall. It was fun.

After the whole performance, I went back home straight. Computer-ed all the way. haha. I was chatting with Lily, when My friend asked me to play a game of DOTA with him. Funny thing is that I won. He was a more experienced person than me. GG. After the game, I check if Lily was online. But she wasnt.

Then chat with Lily at night; but I wasnt really that chat-ful yesterday. Thats about everything :)


I want his hair!! ^O^

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