I had a real bad dream yesterday. And to top it off, I felt my cheeks having tears' "scar" when I woke up. I recalled the dream and I literally lie still in my bed. It felt almost like it was real. As usual, my heart was beginning to be heavy. I did not want to believe it but seriously, it felt real :(

I was dumb to be caught up with work and my own stuff till I forgot about others. Now I am regretting it. But its already too late. Freaking late. Gosh....if only I wasnt too care-less. *sigh

Losing someone, someone whom I have strong feelings for - positive ones, is like being in a room which has no light. All alone in the darkness, with nothing to give us the sight of the place. No hopes. Faith perhaps. Lost. Im moving around the room endlessly with no guidance and direction. The light that used to guide me along the room is gone. I tried to bring back the light. But failed. The light even said "Stop it. Its no use. Just go and leave me alone" before disappearing in the distance.

That was how bad my dream is. When I was lying still in my bed, thinking about it, I was "blank". I was in disbelieve. I tried to call her the day before yesterday. But the number was no longer in use. I thought maybe she needed a change in number and will update me sooner or later. But after having this dream, I started to come out with.....assumptions? I shall put it as. Im really freaking out now. I mean that was the only number that I have to contact her directly. And losing it without no replacement is just....BIG for me o.o

Where did I go wrong again? Where? Can someone or something just tell me the real reason to this? I dont want to keep running without a finishing line.

Labels: Strong feelings. And its positive ones.

Moshimoshi Bloggys :D I know I havent been updating my blog for quite sometime. (yah right, "QUITE sometime" eh) Well I HAVE been busy with work, so I got no time :) (_|_) -.- Fine. Sorry.

Anyways, my Monday turn out to be a slacking-Monday-day. No Peter + LITTLE stock + LESS customer = Peace and relax :) Especially the "No Peter" part. That was the best.

Home: Did nothing. Just psp for today.

So thats for today. What happened recently?

Well, I went for a class gathering hosted by Elaine :D It was held at her crib. It WAS AWESOME! It could HAVE been better if she ordered or the least, cook-up something for the 20+ of us. She just bought chips and 30 pcs Ferrero Roche -.- GG lah Elaine But I shall not complain too much :D It was still and awesome gathering. She lives with her maid in a 4-rm house O_O How awesome can that be! HAHA! We all chilled at her crib for like 4.5hours. Shockingly, people who are so darn decent even started to smoke. LOL. But I dont care the slightest bit. hehs. I and Latep was pissed-off about food. So we went to explore her kitchen. haha! I shall not expose my teacher's "skeleton closet" ;D Cooked maggie mee. It was sold out fast and Im happy for it :D We all gathered together to watch amovie together, Year One. Ass movie. LOL. Like half way thru, some people needed to go off. So, what else? Camwhored. :D The Pictures are all in my Facebook. But I shall put up one here :) at the end of the post.

After that I decided to join the gang for a sheesha session. I wanted to try it but at the same time, I broke a promise. Well....I got nothing to say on that. I have to say, sheesha is nto as heavy as smoking. When I "pulled", I dont feel heavy at my heart and lungs. It was rather like "pulling" nothing. Seriously. Up till now, I have been observing myself for aftermaths of sheesha. Hahaa. But that doesnt concern you guys at all right? I mean you wont even care bout this. LOL.

ANYWAYS~ We all had dinner at Tong Seng, if I recalled correctly. The food is superb. Price abit unreasonable but the food is nice. I had two dishes. Well, I WAS hungry at that point of time.

Done that, we all trained home. Reached home at 11pm. Still okay uh. But then...the next day I had work. So darn that.

So that is that. That is what has been happening recently.

Labels: Shoulder hair length

English. A Universal Language. A subject that all Pure Singaporean (DOES NOT include foreigners who have been noted as citizen of Singapore. Especially China people) students must score in all of their examinations. All of us, the pure Singaporean students, should know why and the consequences of not doing so. Students usually are weak in their language terms. Especially English. Ever wondered why? I came out with a reason for it. Though its not that very accurate. But it make sense? I conclude the reason that the pure Singaporean students are dealing with this, failing in English Language, is due to the increase in China people. Not because the student is dumb or cant think. Its because of that. Fucking irritating right? What is the Government thinking, I really wonder. Dont you? He lets them in our country, clean then pampered them and gave them resources so easily. In addition, these retards can get into schools easily and some, sorry, most of them made it far till University. WTF. Okay. Maybe that was a little too far off. But look at them O_O No CERT. No N, O, A, Diploma, Degree, Masters certs, THEY STILL CAN GET A JOB O_O _|_ So easy. Just like that and they got the job. Not only jobs, but positions which are high. You know what I mean. Let me give some examples: Supervisor, Manager, etc. Right? You GOT to agree on me on this. Irritating right? I really really wonder what the Govt is thinking.

If He really loves the people there, CHINA THAT IS, go migrate there. Isnt it easier? You can go there and love them all you want. Do whatever you like there. Isnt that easier? Thats how I feel o.o


* * *



What happened today? Well, work was as usual. Peter being an asshole. The normal routine. But I went back home around 3pm. I doze off in the train on the way home. I mean really dozed off O_O Never did that before. But somehow, I feel by dozing off in the train makes your ride appears to be shorter. Thats about that.

At home, I didnt do anything much. Just did admin stuffs though it has been a long time that I did that. But that lasted for like 1 hour. So what happened till now? I watched anime and click on URLs aimlessly without any purpose. Then I decided to blog. HA!

Previously, or rather yesterday, I called Nee-san to inform about the CNY gathering. End up we talked about other stuffs! Haha! Its been so long since we ever joked and talked like we used to. Missed the times.... *sigh

Few events are upcoming.
- Ill be going to Kuala Lumpur soon ^^ Long distance driving again! Yeay! :D This time, I objected myself to not sleep till we reached our destination. I pity my dad. Usually when we go for long drives, all of us fall asleep accept him. So this time, I am going to so called "tourn" till we reached our destination so that maybe I can accompany him during the 4 hours drive ;D But that is tomorrow's night. So...you guys can miss me if you want uh. If you guys dont want to, its fine by me.

- My Bro's birthday is coming soon! He is turning 18 already! T_T Hahah. Shall wait till the day itself :D I shall whip up an uber cool present? HA!

- My former form teacher Elaine Lim Mei Mei is creating a gathering for us Alumnis' at her crib! HOW AWESOME IS THAT! *evil Laughs. This one, I REALLY SO CANT WAIT. Its also to celebrate CNY. She is 40 and not married. No wonder she invites us. HAHAHA! (FYI: in a way we are "her children" coming to visit her for CNY) LOL!

Thats all for updates.
Before I end, I just wanna say that I missed you guys! 5/3, 4/5. The best years of my life.
I wonder how they are all now.
I wonder how is Shamilah?
I wonder whats Hayley up to?
I wonder whats EVERYONE is up to? O.O

Sayonara~!

hello Bloggys :D

Long time no update kan? haha. Sorry bout that. So far the past few days I have been work,anime,eat,shit,pray & sleep. Thats my routine. So what can I possibly be blogging? Right? I mean you guys will not bother to read my blog if it was all about that routine. pfft.

Anyways....today was kind of a dull day at work and at the same time, they never fail to piss me off. As usual uh. The people there are crazy, ba-ka and gila punya orang. They say I do work slow. I agree to them to a small extent only. Why I do work slow? Coz you fucking-good-for-nothing-asshole supervisor aint guiding me from the start!! BA-KA! Then when I do something to my logic thinking, they scold me. WTF UH! Let me tell you guys the name of my so called "supervisor" (how the fuck he got that position with such a fucking attitude), Peter Lim Choo Seng. KNNBCCB! If Singapore wasnt strict, I have already break you to bits. Including Helen, the overall manager. BA-KA. BA-KA. BA-KA.


I work for five hours and Ba-ka supervisor expect me to finish everything. They seriously no brainers. The reason why I dont wanna fight back is because Im being fucking patient rioght now. I need the money, so I need to work my ass up and endure the stupidity of other people. I swear Im not coming back to that place.

SO~...after work, I quickly cabut from there. Went to the Sultan Mosque for my Friday prayers. My mind was calm by then. After prayers, I headed back to Boon Lay. I got a date uh. LOL! I was suppose to meet up with Shira at 330pm. I was an hour early. So I went to change my clothes in the toilet, freshen up and walk around the place to kill time. I arrived on time and waited for Shira. When all is set, we went to Pizza Hut for lunch. I was craving for the Lasagna (i dunno the spelling). Ordered a 9" ocean_something pizza, lasagna, brownie ice cream thingy, a sparkling juice, root beer with ice cream and spicy drumlets :D All that for 57 bucks. Cheap sia. I mean I thought it would go up to 80+bucks. That, I will scream. But the price was okay (: I paid for it. Reason being, I owed Shira 12bucks long long time ago. So if she included interests and all, it adds up to that price ;D HAHA! We all then made our way to BLSS. Shira wanted to see her SJAB. So I tagged along and went to see on NCC. and OMG. It was a full-force. seriously. Even though their drills and system isnt that good, the attendance beat the previous batch before them, including mine O_O So I went to kacau they all. haha. Next week aku datang uh ;D Ill participate it too ;D Done that, I went home with Shira. I so called "hantar her till the bustop then went back home. On the way home, saw Hayley. Went to where she was (dah lamer tak jumpe) and greeted her. Then off to home! :D

So thats about it :D Tomorrow will be a gathering held at the bbq pit opposite my block area -.- If you guys start to act cool and not be yourselves, Ill leave early. FOR REAL.