I never thought I would turn to this place again to let out my feelings.
Ive been through a rough week lately. EXAMS. Not to mention the most highlighted subject of all:
FRIENDS.
It happened too fast for me to even catch my breath. My bestfriend getting in love with my best-girl-friend. They were to breakup and I didnt saw it coming. Now H is super mad over it. And Im being suspected and accused for this incident. Best part he brought out the past which has nothing to do with me at all. I swear. I was not wrong. Okay, maybe by a milestone I am. But still I didnt do much damage to the extent that I am hindering H from loving S. I treat S a sister. And it has been like 3 years straight already. He should understand. Plus I even told him whatever thoughts S had about him. NOT ALL. But all the surface details. And H can only look at the bad stuff about me. Its normal human reaction. I agree. But I thought we were brothers? Back then though. Now Im on my own. All the other people are listening to him cause he needs aid and stress-relieve for his current state. I dont blame him. But using the history as a bullet to me? Thats not nice. NOT COOL AT ALL. I still respect you H. But if this is where you wanna lead the problem to, I shall leave. After all, friends come and go.
Im only left with my sister; Dale and Shira maybe. I dont know. Im still blurred by all the damage that I have taken. Im trying to be strong here. but its hard.
No matter how strong a bullet proof glass is, bullets can still pass through it.I hope I can get through this well. And friends? gee, i guess I need to find new ones who trust me for real and sees BOTH flaws and good of me.
what we could have been, 3:18:00 PM.