Today was the first time, i felt an O level paper for real. From my previous entry on "Another Day Another Day" ,I mentioned about an IMBA test. Today, I just got the verdict. And what I predicted was true I failed. I got 9 of 20 for the MCQ paper. A MCQ paper. NOT yet a structured paper. Guess how bad will it be? I dont want to talk about it. When it was my turn to get the paper result, most of my classmates were shocked. They all went silent, when my teacher mentioned the marks followed by my name. I was totally O.O when I received the paper. Alot of feelings rushed through me; Guilty, Disappointing, Defeated, O.O and Sad. My teacher said it was okay to fail for this paper as he knows it was a d-i-f-f-i-c-u-l-t paper. I just cant accept that. Its was a Huge Blow to me. HUGE! I mean if you are always up front and one day you fall. its gonna be a huge impact. I felt as if I just fell from a building. o.o

But Kakak and Atep tried to cheer me up. (thanks alot kakak and atep!)
Kakak: Relax my brother :) We need to chill. Its just a test :D
Atep: Aah zal, relaks ah. Lagi satu mark je. :D
Me: ... :) ...
They always tried to motivate and cheer me up. I appreciate it. But as my physics teacher goes through the paper, my head starts to throb. Especially my left brain. It HURTS! still feel the pain now. I guess I was sucking in too much. I had to let go of it. *sigh. But Im gonna score my CA this coming Monday. Ill make sure I make a comeback.

haha. Not forgetting Lily Yana :) She too cheer me up. Virtually. hehe.
Lily Yana: awwwwww , cheeer up laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
Lily Yana: dont be sad sad . just relax okayyyy :D
Me: Okay Lily Yana :)
Thanks Lily Yana! :D appreciate it.

So thats what happened for today. Now, Im gonna rest for the day. Tomorrow will be the start of my training and preparations for Monday. Wish me luck people! :D

Labels: Picking Up Myself