Song List
2) Naive by The Kooks, Live at Leeds
3) Dreamer by ONE OK ROCK
4) Im Awesome by The Spouse
5) Tell Me Goodbye by BIGBANG
6) Special by B2ST/BEAST, Live Performance
7) Telephone by Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Hello people :) I hope you guys are doing well. Because Im not.
Well, today was not a very good day. I kick start my day with questions in my mind - regarding my life.
The first question was like, "Results are out! yeay!....BUT, how well did I do?". It kept going in my mind for the rest of my school time. One by one, I got back my papers. Well, Ill be straight forward bout it. I failed my Computer Studies and pass my other 5 subjects. I am heartbroken when I got back all my papers. I was not and never cared about being the top student of my class for now. I mean even if I am the highest with my class MSG at 6 (which is not true, just an example), its useless. If you get what I mean. Anyways, I was so darn happy for my Physics. I got 81.5%. yes. 81.5%. Thats an A1! yeay! haha. But when I got back my Chemistry and calculated the total for my Combined Science, I lost my morale COMPLETELY. My Chemistry marks pulled my down, ALOT. I got 54.5 for my Chemistry. If you did your maths, I got 67.##%. OMG! I was emo. I felt like I just trembled over something and fell hard. So thats bout it. Below are the whole Prelim grades. Criticize and comment if you want at Left-Side of my blog or simply leave a comment.
Well, today was not a very good day. I kick start my day with questions in my mind - regarding my life.
The first question was like, "Results are out! yeay!....BUT, how well did I do?". It kept going in my mind for the rest of my school time. One by one, I got back my papers. Well, Ill be straight forward bout it. I failed my Computer Studies and pass my other 5 subjects. I am heartbroken when I got back all my papers. I was not and never cared about being the top student of my class for now. I mean even if I am the highest with my class MSG at 6 (which is not true, just an example), its useless. If you get what I mean. Anyways, I was so darn happy for my Physics. I got 81.5%. yes. 81.5%. Thats an A1! yeay! haha. But when I got back my Chemistry and calculated the total for my Combined Science, I lost my morale COMPLETELY. My Chemistry marks pulled my down, ALOT. I got 54.5 for my Chemistry. If you did your maths, I got 67.##%. OMG! I was emo. I felt like I just trembled over something and fell hard. So thats bout it. Below are the whole Prelim grades. Criticize and comment if you want at Left-Side of my blog or simply leave a comment.
-English: C6
-Mathematics: B4
-Combined Humanities: B4
-Combined Science: B3
-Mother Tongue: B4
-Computer Studies: D7
-Mathematics: B4
-Combined Humanities: B4
-Combined Science: B3
-Mother Tongue: B4
-Computer Studies: D7
L1 + B4: 21
Thats about it for educations. Now, the other questions in my head.
"Why life is so cruel and sucks badly?"
"What isit about me that everyone seems to be avoiding me?"
"What I did wrong, so wrong that some people are angry at me?"
"Am I really a bad person?"
"I feel as if Im being banished. Forbidden to have a relationship with my friends?"
"Why is this happening to me? Is this a punishment to me?"
"If this is a punishment for my actions which hurt the people around me?"
"Things arent looking the same for me. I feel like they dont want me to be there..."
Those are the questions which popped out while i was going, at and leaving school. Till now these questions run in my head. Why? I just dont get it. Please do tell me. Please voice out if you hate or dont like something or everything about me. I wont get angry. I promise. But please, I seriously ask, what isit? Tell me what is wrong with me?? Ill appreciate it. I mean atleast I can change myself to be better. Ill try my best. Please. Help me. Thanks.
My heart and mind aches whenever these questions pops out in my mind.
"What isit about me that everyone seems to be avoiding me?"
"What I did wrong, so wrong that some people are angry at me?"
"Am I really a bad person?"
"I feel as if Im being banished. Forbidden to have a relationship with my friends?"
"Why is this happening to me? Is this a punishment to me?"
"If this is a punishment for my actions which hurt the people around me?"
"Things arent looking the same for me. I feel like they dont want me to be there..."
Those are the questions which popped out while i was going, at and leaving school. Till now these questions run in my head. Why? I just dont get it. Please do tell me. Please voice out if you hate or dont like something or everything about me. I wont get angry. I promise. But please, I seriously ask, what isit? Tell me what is wrong with me?? Ill appreciate it. I mean atleast I can change myself to be better. Ill try my best. Please. Help me. Thanks.
My heart and mind aches whenever these questions pops out in my mind.
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Labels: Help me.
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