Song List
2) Naive by The Kooks, Live at Leeds
3) Dreamer by ONE OK ROCK
4) Im Awesome by The Spouse
5) Tell Me Goodbye by BIGBANG
6) Special by B2ST/BEAST, Live Performance
7) Telephone by Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I had a bad dream yesterday. But I guess the dream came to reality. And its already happening. I guess, Im not cut out for it.
I was being in patient, I admit. To say the right things at the right moments, To make the right moves at the moment. I really cant judge that. This lost was of my own. Not hers. Gosh, how dumb can I be. Should I beg for forgiveness? I think not. This is the part where you guys can say to me, "what done is done". But even so. I really want to know where did I really went wrong. The dream was horrifying. I wont say. I feel so shitty. Like I got hit by a Solemn Bell. Its harsh. But it was meant to be, for me.
What went wrong? I couldnt come out with a better answer that I analysed on my own. But this is what I came out with. I was taking things too fast. I didnt think far, like I always used to. To tell you the truth, I really didnt saw this coming. I was confident it wont reach this far. But it did.
If I ask for forgiveness, but its not for me to be forgiven, is it possible? I know this phrase sounds a weird. But I wished it to be like that. I rather not be forgiven. Im not trying to be dramatic here, but its for the best. I analysed it and I say its better this way. But come to think of it, I havent thought of how, by doing this will affect her. I really dont know! fuck. What should I do? Leave it as it is? Then Im a coward. fuck. Someone suggested for me to apologize face to face. I havent meet her. smartass. Ill let time help me. Till it tells me what to do.
I called madam Yuana. She didnt mind if I didnt turn up today. Sorry Madam Yuana, I really want to.
Work again. Tomorrow will be the last for the week. pfft.
Before I end this whole post, I want to apologize to the people around. I shall not call this post a sad one. But rather a "reality check".
Till then, if there is, sayonara.
.........
I was being in patient, I admit. To say the right things at the right moments, To make the right moves at the moment. I really cant judge that. This lost was of my own. Not hers. Gosh, how dumb can I be. Should I beg for forgiveness? I think not. This is the part where you guys can say to me, "what done is done". But even so. I really want to know where did I really went wrong. The dream was horrifying. I wont say. I feel so shitty. Like I got hit by a Solemn Bell. Its harsh. But it was meant to be, for me.
What went wrong? I couldnt come out with a better answer that I analysed on my own. But this is what I came out with. I was taking things too fast. I didnt think far, like I always used to. To tell you the truth, I really didnt saw this coming. I was confident it wont reach this far. But it did.
If I ask for forgiveness, but its not for me to be forgiven, is it possible? I know this phrase sounds a weird. But I wished it to be like that. I rather not be forgiven. Im not trying to be dramatic here, but its for the best. I analysed it and I say its better this way. But come to think of it, I havent thought of how, by doing this will affect her. I really dont know! fuck. What should I do? Leave it as it is? Then Im a coward. fuck. Someone suggested for me to apologize face to face. I havent meet her. smartass. Ill let time help me. Till it tells me what to do.
How did we get here When I used to know you so well? How did we get here? Well, I think I knowWhy must life just take away Every good thing one at a timeI'm not saying its your fault How could this been done By such a smiling sweetheart.
I called madam Yuana. She didnt mind if I didnt turn up today. Sorry Madam Yuana, I really want to.
Work again. Tomorrow will be the last for the week. pfft.
Before I end this whole post, I want to apologize to the people around. I shall not call this post a sad one. But rather a "reality check".
Till then, if there is, sayonara.
.........
what we could have been, 10:52:00 AM.
