I had a real bad dream yesterday. And to top it off, I felt my cheeks having tears' "scar" when I woke up. I recalled the dream and I literally lie still in my bed. It felt almost like it was real. As usual, my heart was beginning to be heavy. I did not want to believe it but seriously, it felt real :(

I was dumb to be caught up with work and my own stuff till I forgot about others. Now I am regretting it. But its already too late. Freaking late. Gosh....if only I wasnt too care-less. *sigh

Losing someone, someone whom I have strong feelings for - positive ones, is like being in a room which has no light. All alone in the darkness, with nothing to give us the sight of the place. No hopes. Faith perhaps. Lost. Im moving around the room endlessly with no guidance and direction. The light that used to guide me along the room is gone. I tried to bring back the light. But failed. The light even said "Stop it. Its no use. Just go and leave me alone" before disappearing in the distance.

That was how bad my dream is. When I was lying still in my bed, thinking about it, I was "blank". I was in disbelieve. I tried to call her the day before yesterday. But the number was no longer in use. I thought maybe she needed a change in number and will update me sooner or later. But after having this dream, I started to come out with.....assumptions? I shall put it as. Im really freaking out now. I mean that was the only number that I have to contact her directly. And losing it without no replacement is just....BIG for me o.o

Where did I go wrong again? Where? Can someone or something just tell me the real reason to this? I dont want to keep running without a finishing line.

Labels: Strong feelings. And its positive ones.